Pushed

I was pushed to the very limits of my boundaries. You just keep pushing me to fulfill your expectation. What is wrong with you? I know that I was strayed away from my beliefs, but, this is truly a decision that was made by my ignorant thinking. I know this is sinful and brings me eternal damnation. Yet, I don't believe in your false prophecies. Save me.

2011 In Review - Prologue

Did I say that I have to write this post entirely in English? Did I?


Well, it's December 25th. You know the day right? Um, This year is about to end. If you think 2011 is epic enough, think again. 2012 is going to be MANIC! Whether it's going to be good or worst, you'll have to wait. But, I think 2012 is gonna be awesome! Oh, about the PMR results? You already know that, aren't you? No? well, 7 A 1 B is the figure. B is the Math. Cut this jibber jabber. This post is about 2011 in review right? But it's  way too early to post the review. I'm eager to post that, so I'll post this. A Prologue. You'll have to wait for the full story. Hahahaha.

7 Billion Orang: Kenapa Aku?

aku harap aku dapat power macam ni.

Kenapa aku? Antara 7 billion orang di Bumi ini, kenapa aku? Dah tak ada orang lain untuk aku? Kenapa kau yang aku pilih? Sedangkan kau tak pernah wujud (she only exists when she's on the screen). Kenapa perlu aku ambil berat berat pasal kau (why should I care)? Kenapa perlu aku fikir tentang semua ini? Kenapa perlu aku berseorangan di dalam alam ini (why do you leave me alone in this universe)? Dan kenapa perlu aku tahu (why should I know about that)? Inilah kau. But, I guess I should make my own way out of my own misery.

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THE CAKE IS A LIE.

Adakah yang aku rasai selama ini hanya mimpi atau igauan? Atau satu pembohongan? The Cake Is A Lie. Ya, ini memang satu penipuan, penipuan yang bijak diatur dan dilaksanakan. Aku dah melebih-lebih. Ganjaran telah dijanjikan, namun tidak diperoleh. Aku dah penat berusaha, tapi hanya sia-sia. Mereka patut bertanggungjawab atas dosa dan kesalahan yang dilakukan. Tapi, apakan daya? Aku hanyalah seorang manusia atau patung yang tidak berkuasa seperti mereka. Mereka punyai kuasa, kemewahan, hak dan dicintai oleh orang lain. Kami hanya hamba yang lemah, papa-kedana, dimaki hamun, diendahkan, dipaksa dan dibenci oleh masyarakat. Perang yang kami lawan hanyalah mainan mereka, setiap teriakan kami hanyalah melodi buat mereka, setiap saat gentir kami hanyalah secebis masa yang tidak pedulikan oleh mereka dan setiap titisan darah, peluh dan tangisan kami hanyalah seteguk arak bagi mereka. Kami sedar kami tidak layak untuk dicintai, tapi anggaplah kami ini sebagai manusia yang setaraf dengan kamu semua. Dan hargailah setiap usaha kami. Namun, kamu terlalu buta dan pekak untuk melihat dan mendengar keperitan yang kami lalui. Hanya masa akan memperbetulkan keadaan.Dan kami akan menang, kami akan lihat bendera kami dinaikkan secara gah dan gilang-gemilang di depan mata kamu yang buta. Kami akan berjuang sehingga akhir hayat kami. DAN KAMI AKAN MEMBALAS DENDAM. Hanya masa yang tahu. FUCK YOU, I WON’T DO WHAT YOU TELL ME! YOU DO WHAT THEY TOLD YOU AND NOW YOU’RE UNDER CONTROL. WE WILL DESTROY YOU. WE KNOW OUR ENEMIES, AND BITCH, YOU’RE ONE OF THEM. SOMETHING MUST BE DONE. FUCK THE SYSTEM, I’VE GOT NO PATIENCE. WE’RE TIRED OF BEING PUSHED AROUND.

 

WE ARE THE UNIVERSE. WE ARE DESTROYING OURSELVES.

Nature/Shrinking Universe

But you aren't even listening 'cause you are just Too old to feel an earthquake Or too cool to even care But you aren't even listening So why should I care?


Can't you see it's over Because you're the god Of a shrinking universe


Cast your ideals onto me And I'll show you what you really need Give too much attention And I'll reflect your imperfections


You are a natural disaster And I've wanted you too much And now I'm gonna lose I've wanted you too much And now I've gotta choose You're the cause of all this And I'm sick of trying to please you Yeah And you're gonna feel my emotions coming Yeah Because you're my world


Purposeless survival Now there's nothing left to die for So don't struggle to recognise Now the cruelly heart-felt suicide


You're the cause of all this And I'm sick of trying to please you Yeah And you're gonna feel my emotions coming Yeah Because you're my world
Can't you see it's over Because you're the god Of a shrinking universe


She would never listen to me...

Saya Nak Kamu/I Want You Now! EP

I WANT YOU


Saya nak kamu. You're the only one is in my heart. You're the only one who I loved. You're my first true love. Namun, kamu tidak pernah mengerti/ But, you would never understand it. I Love youuuuu!! I travelled across the world to say that: I Want You! Saya faham, I'm not the one for you.

COME ON!!


I can't accept the fact (note to myself: please please please accept that fact) that you're gone... Mama! Saya nak awak!

GET A GRIP, MATE...


I'll wait for you, even it'll kills me. (not really though..) Saya akan tunggu...

IT'S BUGGING ME...


Tiap2 hari saya memikir about you dear...

GIVE IT BACK...


You've stolen my heart, sweety..

HOPE...


That you will be mine...

Paan! Apa yang kamu tulis ni?! Huh? Tak ada apa tuan. Bohong! Meh sini saya tengok. JANGAN!!! Oh, surat cinta ya... Saya report dekat mak awak! MAK!!!!

Terus Bangun Dan Berjuang!

PERHATIAN: TERDAPAT AYAT-AYAT OPTIMISTK DAN JIWANG


Pernah berasa sedih atau kecewa dalam hidup anda? Jangan risau! Setiap waktu susah, duka, sedih, melankoli dan perasaan yang perit yg lain mesti ada hikmahnya kan? Sentiasa percaya dengan apa yg kita ada dan terus hidup. (jangan sekali-kali untuk cuba membunuh diri) Telan pahit yang kita lalui, dan kalau anda tidak dapat menahan emosi, luahkan dgn menangis (tapi jgn lama2), menjalankan aktiviti yg berfaedah dan berdoa. Namun, jangan pernah sekali-kali putus asa. Macam saya, setiap hari ada macam2 ja dugaan, saya anggap "fuck it, sabaq ja la.. siap sedia utk masa depan" Ingat! jangan pernah putus asa!

Nota untuk diri sendiri: Ingat paan, walaupun bukan nasib kita, teruskan hidup untuk masa depan dan bukannya hidup untuk masa lampau.